the sacred echo

"the sacred echo"

i hear Your voice
in the depths of the darkness
Your voice echoes in the vastness
and resonates in my soul

i fall to my knees
in praise and honour to You
i cry out in response
and i listen to Your voice

You call out for me where i hide
in the deepest parts of the wilderness
where i have run to escape
Your voice finds me where i am

i lay with my face in the dirt
crying aloud for You
to take away all my burdens & pain
so that i may find rest in You

3/31/2011

fall farewell (tribute to chris)

this popped in my head on the way home from work one night...i lost my best friend chris 9 yrs ago this october

"fall farewell (tribute to chris)"
leaves began to change
many hearts were shattered
everything was so strange
but friendships were cherished

never really got to say goodbye
or to let you know how i felt
but now i can at least try
in this tearful fall farewell

you were more than my friend
there more than any other
even until the very end
you were my brother

the times we shared our music and the studio time at concerts and at school
during the good and during the bad
you were there for me when i needed someone
no matter when and where before i called you knew

but now you are gone
and many lives were touched
from you being a friend
and one of those was mine

12/7/2004

grace

i wrote this one tonight...its based off of "ragamuffin gospel" by brennan manning...if you havent read this book, go read it...

"grace"
over the years
i've been taught
who i should be
and how i should act

but no matter what
i know that You
take me as i am
and not as i should be

you shed your grace
all over me
for no other reason
than just because

no matter how i am
or what i do
there You are waiting for me
running to me with arms wide open

01/09/2005

as i lay dying

i wrote this about 8 years ago...b/c i was sick of people saying that they're always going to be there if you need them...but you know what 9 times out of 10 they aint gonna be there...and it made me think about what if i was dying, would they be there then...

As I Lay Dying
as i lay dying
where are you
you said you would be there
but you didnt keep your word

as i lay dying
i curse the day
the very day i was born
thats all i can think to say

as i lay dying
can you just leave me be
can you leave me alone
can i just die in peace

as i lay dying
you said that you cared
but do you really
i can tell you that you didnt

standing at the crossroads

**this came to me during my sunday school lesson today out of 1 kings where elijah was telling the prophets & followers of baal to make a choice...we all have crossroads in our lives that we are facing where we have to make a decision be it a good one that will make everyone happy or be it a bad one where someone will get hurt***

standing at the crossroads

here i stand at the crossroads of life
full of confusion and full of doubt
knowing what i want out of things
but not sure that it is right

my life has changed so much
in such a little time
my heart feel like
it is just hanging by a thread

which way should i go?
should i follow my heart
or should i just let go?
thus my confusion

if i stay here
will it all happen again?
if i go away
i will never know what will happen

i feel that my life
has been flipped upside down
not knowing what is going on
but everything happens for a reason

a reason i will never know
but everything will eventually work out
not in the time that i would like it to
but in the time that He wants it to

1/9/2011

anguish unleashed

anguish unleashed

pan and anger flood
the deepest depths of my soul
from so many sources
some close and some from afar

darkness covers my mind
feeling that nothing i do is right
nothing i do is good enough
things i'm tired of hearing

i tear through my skin
to expose my soul
releasing my anguish
my torment and my torture

releasing upon the earth
years of suffering and pain
finally to my boiling point
finally set free from this bondage